I don't have enough faith to be an atheist. I really don't. I've tried rejecting God. I'm not able to. God is real. I believe the bible because every word of it is true.
God, being outside of time, has a way of speaking truth that transcends time and space. Maybe someday I'll work out a good way to describe this idea. It's to late tonight to take a crack at it. God's truth is much bigger than our truth, in both definition and scale. As are His methods of interacting with us. Here in is my frustration.
Maybe you've had some say, "I can't believe in God because He doesn't answer prayer". I've got the opposite problem. God answers my prayers. I see Him answer other prayers. Frankly, He seems to enjoy doing it. Although I believe He says "no", that's not my problem. He seems to say "yes" far more frequently than random chance would allow. I suspect that He especially enjoys doing things for His kids in ways that are totally unexpected from our vantage point in time.
I just wish I had the ability to see the plan a little more in advance than I do. I wish I was able to hear His voice a little more clearly, and order my steps accordingly. I don't know how to get better at doing either one of these things.
If you have faith as a mustard seed you can move mountains. If I could hear His voice or see the plan, I'd know which ones need moving and which ones need to be gone around. Another problem, "He can do more than we can ask or imagine". I believe that. I can imagine, and therefore ask for a lot.
Maybe that's immaturity on my part. Maybe its something else, like a lack of faith. Maybe, if I could see the plan, I'd do a better job getting with the program. Maybe I'd see what was coming and totally freak out and blow it worse than I am now.