My whole life I've been concerned with social issues and being a good citizen. I couldn't wait to turn 18 and vote. It was grown up, mature and responsible. That was how I saw myself, and how I wanted to be.
There aren't very many duties for a good citizen to preform. Yes you pay taxes, but that is designed to eliminate any chance of you not paying them. So you can't claim any civic virtue just because you fork over the cash. Voting is no longer relevant. Being informed doesn't make you a good voter, it makes you cynical. I'm past the age for military service, and I'd be 4F anyway, so that is out. The last remaining civic duty I can fill is jury duty.
I think I'd be a good juror. Good in the sense I'd stick to my guns and only vote according to what I believed to be morally right. I've been eligible for jury service more than half of my life, and I've never been called. This month I got the call. I went down and turned in my juror questioner and got myself a hardship deferral.
I hated doing it. I feel like a bad citizen. There was noting else I could have done, so I shirked my civic duty.